damn it !!!!

I've tried to forget him
I've tried to stay away from his life
Initially, I thought I could
I think I can really forget about him
but now
why suppose it appear again?
why did he appear again in my life?
I hate
I hate when I know I still expect him
I hate when I dream about him again
I hate when I know I just pretended to forget him

currently,
when I try to love someone again
I have to immediately eliminate this feeling anymore
I feel like a loser
I feel life is not fair for me
I can only admire from afar
In fact, I feel no one likes me!
no one cares about me
I'm rubbish
I'm a loser
and I hate my fucking life